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Post by Emma Louise Byrne on Jan 1, 2009 3:25:31 GMT
Pushing her way through the study Emma tiptoed past the large bookcases crammed full of books. Shuffling past the large amount of tables and chairs and slipping past a small bookcase at the far back of the study hall she found herself in a cold, dark room. come on! she called after Jennie popping her head around the bookcase. Sliding back into the desolate room she ran her hand across the wall finding the light switch and swiftly turning it on. Skipping over to a small pile of cushions she had moved and placed into her favourite hiding area she used to separate herself from the world and all its troubles she crashed down and picked up one of her books. Jennnniieeee! she called flicking through the pages of the book in her hand.
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Post by ...Jennifer Lilliana Filan... on Jan 1, 2009 3:30:25 GMT
Where are we going? Jennie asked, falling over a pile of books. Who places books there? she rolled her eyes and picked herself up. She stood to Emma's side and expressed a confused look. What the fuck are we doing here?
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Post by Emma Louise Byrne on Jan 1, 2009 3:33:10 GMT
I went exploring around the school and found this place.. Emma smiled holding her arms out. I know its small, cold and stupid but its a place to escape and I like it. No one knows its here ... so i just come here to think and things.
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Post by ...Jennifer Lilliana Filan... on Jan 1, 2009 3:35:53 GMT
Aww, that's cute Emzi. she cooed her. What have you needed to think about? Jennie asked, sitting down, cross legged on the floor.
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Post by Emma Louise Byrne on Jan 1, 2009 3:38:52 GMT
Emma rolled her eyes at the 'cute' remark. Just life and my past. Emma smiled weakly pulling her knees into her chest. sooo ... what did you want to talk about? she asked swiftly and quickly changing the subject.
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Post by ...Jennifer Lilliana Filan... on Jan 1, 2009 3:40:37 GMT
Jennie suddenly replied. About everything, love, sex, money, alcohol, drugs...the whole sha bang! she blurted. She stared at Emma, not believing that she was going to tell Emma all her truths.
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Post by Emma Louise Byrne on Jan 1, 2009 3:42:31 GMT
wow thats ... a lot. Emma said shocked. so .. start with the one topic at a time ... love? what happened? she asked sitting up and folding her arms across her chest.
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Post by ...Jennifer Lilliana Filan... on Jan 1, 2009 22:41:41 GMT
Jennie sighed and made herself comfortable. The words just started to stumble out, she held back nothing. Like all her secrets and feelings were being drained out into the open. Well... she sighed yet again. Love. I haven't been so lucky in love in the years that have past. I was once in love with a guy that worked at the SuperValue back home, he was four years older than me, and said that he loved me too. Later did Lucy tell me that all older men want is sex and that's when I lost that feeling for the guy. But then, Lucy pissed off with a guy who was 17 years old and she only 15! To my surprise he had already bedded her and she was telling me that she was 2 months pregnant. I was shocked as hell. I had to tell someone, I just had to. I loved her so much, she was like the sister I never had, but she was hiding the truth from her mum and I couldn't just sit back and allow that to happen. So I told her parents. Her mother flipped, made her abort the unborn child and then got the 17 year old guy jailed for sleeping with a minor. She hated me so so much. And it was unbearable, so I just moped about for awhile until my mum said she was sending me to here, Harrow. I loved here at first, my chance to escape...but then Lucy arrived. Now, onto my real love life...Jack Johnson. He has stolen my heart and is treasuring it. she smiled at the thought of him. We met in the nightclub, the time Abbi and I actually talked. He was there, having a drink and a laugh; and I had too much to drink, one thing led to the other and I ended up losing my virginity to him behind a tree. she wanted to be ashamed at that statement, but because it mentioned Jack, she didn't feel the shame that she should have. She stared down at her hands. He is bisexual, it doesn't scare me that he is, just at the competition against both genders. I don't know. Er... she paused. That's how I ended up telling him I loved him, and I do, don't get me wrong, but I think I would have looked at it more strongly if I have not have found out that he was a bisexual. she sighed. Next topic please... she looked up and smiled at Emma.
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Post by Emma Louise Byrne on Jan 1, 2009 22:58:54 GMT
Emma’s mouth fell slightly agape as Jennie informed her of all her past history involving love. Raising her eyebrows and unfolding her arms she blinked a few times.
wooo. she exclaimed. to be honest jennie you did the right thing when it came to Lucy. She protected you and you returned the favour. Everything would be different know if you hadn’t. The baby might not have been cared for correctly because the parents were so young and the lad would most probably have left Lucy because of the child. Most teenage dads dont want to participate in anything like that because they are so young and immature and it is a big step. As for Jack well it seems as though you love him and feel strongly towards him. Not just the things you are saying but the way you are saying them penetrates a vibe of love from you ... so what if hes bisexual its his choice and you should stick by him ... and its good you dont care because you shouldn’t. I'm sure that knowing you love him jack is less likely to go of gallivanting with someone else so dont worry about competition. Emma smiled trying to decide which topic she would love to hear about next after hearing so much from her just discussing her love life. Twiddling her thumbs Emma smiled looking up and locking eye contact with Jennie. Speaking slowly in a hushed, clam town she said the next topic for Jennie to discuss. sex.
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Post by ...Jennifer Lilliana Filan... on Jan 1, 2009 23:13:27 GMT
Jennie giggled. That word sounds funny coming from you. she laughed lightly and then focused on her new topic. Sex. It is fantastic! she said, bouncing up. She twirled around. As a child and until I was 15, I thought sex was disgusting. But now, now...it is wonderful. I know I have only ever done it with one person: JJ. But, it was brilliant. she smiled. Its so passionate, a way of showing love and how you appreciate the person that you are having sex with. And my my, JJ is wow! she sat back down and still had her huge crooked smile expressed. So...next topic please. she said, she wasn't at all shamed about what she had just said.
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Post by Emma Louise Byrne on Jan 1, 2009 23:24:48 GMT
hey you dont know .. i might of had sex. Emma chuckled. It's sounds like you dont regret having sex with Jack ... which is good considering you love him. Emma's mouth curved into a small smile as she thought about which topic to choose next. drugs and alcohol ... they are usually used at the same time and our both similar so talk about them both.
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Post by ...Jennifer Lilliana Filan... on Jan 1, 2009 23:40:45 GMT
In my case, the drugs came a lot earlier before the alcohol. she frowned. When I was 13 years old, I became quite suicidal. I couldn't cope in school with all the homework and the pressure to be a thin cheerleader. I was Lucy's tag along, the little girl that was a bit bitchy but was too fat to be crowned Queen Bee at school. This led me into depression, soon, I don't know why though, I was cutting my wrist, hiding it and thinking that it was a punishment. I still don't understand why though. she wiped a tear as it rolled down her cheek. Guess I was stupid. Please don't judge me though, I just thought I was a failure. she sunk down; shoulders dropped and head down also. When my family finally noticed what I was...had done, they took me to a shrink. I was examined and shit. I still couldn't explain my behavior. she felt ashamed of herself at this moment. Now...alcohol. I never liked to drink until I came here. I was taken to a nightclub with Abbi, as I have already said, and drank too much...then ended up losing my virginity, guess we have established that part. Anyway, I love to drink now, that's why I enjoy being around Nikki, she is so funny and is never offended if I want to drink too much. That's all there is about alcohol. she frowned. Next topic. she chirped.
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Post by Emma Louise Byrne on Jan 1, 2009 23:49:42 GMT
drugs and alcohol dont help you know? you should really get help. I know you were upset and depressed and things but drinking and taking drugs doesnt stop the hurting... believe me i know. Emma saw the look of concern on Jennie's face and shook her head abruptly this stopping jennie asking any questions about Emma's past. anyway, I'm sorry you were really depressed and I hope you are ok now. I know Harrow has been stressful for a lot of us in particular the more popular ones like you and Abbi, but life is horrible and crap and stressful. Emma felt tears stinging at her eyes and stood up and hugged Jennie the pair both feeling sorrow about their pasts. only one topic left so ... money... go on? Emma prompted pulling away from Jennie and taking her seated position again.
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Post by ...Jennifer Lilliana Filan... on Jan 1, 2009 23:57:25 GMT
Jennie hugged Emma back and allowed the tears to roll down her cheeks. Money, I have never had financial worries were my family is concerned. The bank is full, not meaning to brag, but it is true. she forced a smile. She pulled away from the hug and sat down. I once stole £100,000 from the authorities. My family needed some cash, and I could help. I have this ability you see, were I am able to connect with technology. It was such an easy crime, talking to a cash point and asking for the money. Catching it as millions of cash flew around. It was amazing, and that's why my family are so secure in the money department. she giggled. You can't tell no one. I know it wasn't the only time I did it, because I did it every week, but I was never caught. And I don't want to be now. So please hush. Keep it a secret. she whispered.
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Post by Emma Louise Byrne on Jan 2, 2009 0:32:44 GMT
wow that is a totally awesome power. I haven't even got a power. Emma folded her arms slightly upset. i won't tell anyone i promise. she smiled her head full of information making her smile grow further. shall we go back and find Nikki?
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